Anyway...The band hasn't started recording yet. We will soon.
I started a new music project, a solo electronic project, called Ojos Del Mar. Songs can be listened to here: www.purevolume.com/ojosdelmar
I have an awesome new job working for the Saranac Lake Area Chamber of Commerce, in, you guessed it, Saranac Lake. It's fun. It's a desk job, and I work with some great people. 9-5 job in the real world now!
I'm incredibly excited that Meghan got into Boston University. We're waiting to hear back from Emerson for me now, and my fingers are crossed in hopes that I get in.
I made some major realizations over the last few months, about school, and life. I've learned a lot about myself from my relationships with other people, the opportunities that have presented themselves to me, the things I've done, where I went to school, etc. I used to (roughly a year ago) think that I was absolutely sure what I wanted to study in school, where I wanted to go to school, what I wanted to do with my life after college, where I wanted to be, and who I wanted to be with when all of these things happened. The school that I chose, Champlain College, was not a good fit for me. I'm not saying it was a bad school, it just wasn't the right fit. It was recommended to me by one of my mom's friends who said that her son had gone there and that it was a "good high-tech school, where I'd end up with a good job". I told her that I was going to study Computer Networking and be a Systems Administrator and make tons of money after college, because, come on, how many people know how to set up a network, with the proper routing protocols, hubs, switches, routers, types of cabling, servers, etc? If you understood that, raise your hand.
Going back even further though, I got into taking CISCO Academy courses in high school because my parents said things like..."Well, you're good with computers, and that sounds like you'd make some good money doing that. And you can have your band thing on the side." So, both of those things...the last 3 years of my life, in regards to my education has been based on the ideals of other people. The one thing that was missing from both of these recommendations was the "happy" part. They said these opportunities were good for making money, but not that I'd be happy at all doing them. Life's too short not to do what you love. That's what prompted me to change majors halfway through the year, and start doing communications work. I LOVE it. It's what I should do in my life, I can feel it. I'm good at talking to people. Communication is my biggest strength and so I'm pursuing a career in it by having applied to Emerson College in Boston, where I can "network" (no cables attached!) with people and make friends all around the big city that I love, and that my girlfriend loves. I'm a city boy, born, but not raised in one. I know I'll make a happy good life there.
I looked at my old blog: www.xanga.com/blackstormy, and found something on the the last page I had written, within the last 5 entries I posted before I stopped writing there altogether. Here is me, making the same revelations I am now, back then, but in a different way.
"I would love nothing more than for me to be able to be in a band, and tour around the country playing shows. I so want to just get out of this town, and go into the music business and do that with my life. I LOVE it when people tell me that they like my music. I feel like pieces of me are being found, and put together, to form something bigger. I so enjoy the stage, and singing, and playing.
But, there's a lot that I don't want to leave behind, like my friends, and Lauren, and my family. And I don't know if I would have the heart to. I don't know. It's probably a stupid idea to try and pursue it for as long as I possibly can, because unless I'm really lucky, or The Standards are really lucky, the chance of us getting this big break into the music business is terribly unlikely. Oh god...I so want something like that to work though. It's this fantasy I have...and I don't know whether I should be doing what I'm good at, with computer stuff, and making a steady income that way, or following the other side of my heart and pursuing what I love. It's a decision that every person has to make, and right now, I don't want to make that decision.
I don't want to grow up to be a failure. I want to live a fruitful life, and not be a fuck-up that everyone forgets about. I realized that if I put my mind to things, and really work for them, I can get (most of the time) what I need. My mom is teaching me how to cook. I'm taking standard driving lessons. I have a job, and learning good skills there. I'm in colorguard to keep my body intact, and I try to go to church, or make love, or meditate, as much as possible to keep my spirit intact. I love my family, and friends, and Lauren. I don't want to be the guy that doesn't do or know anything, so I'm learning, and doing, and achieving."
On a lighter note, Study.Finds.College.Students.Most.Narcissistic.Generation
So, if you want to stop reading my blog because I'm only using it to stroke my ego, then yeah. That's okay. I won't be offended. *cries*
This is going to turn back into a daily blog, with a likely bi-weekly review of a band I like. I have lots of spare time in the evenings now, so you'll find musings here. Don't worry, a theme will emerge eventually. Is it a political blog? Is it a comedy blog? Is it a music blog? Is it a blog about llamas? I don't know. You tell me.
Till tomorrow, Peace and love.
